You talking to me ???

“In difficult times, use a mirror. You will see both the cause and resolution.”

I just stood there staring into the eyes. That dark circular abyss, seemed to spiral on and on deeper into something unknown. There was something hypnotizing about them. What were they trying to say? Where were they leading to?

I wonder how the world looks like through those eyes. What do those eyes make of the chaos that goes on, on the other side. May be they just see and don’t process anything of it. But what good would that be.

I sometimes can’t stop myself from pondering over the thought of the possible depths those eyes could lead you to. What would you be able find as you delve deeper. What mysteries are waiting to be uncovered. What questions waiting to be answered. Or better yet, what questions are waiting to be questioned.

But then again am i listening hard enough to know what questions those eyes are asking, is another thing i muse on about. Quietly observing and questioning everything i do, or don’t do. Looking at the world with dismay, wondering where the world is heading to. at the same time, looking on with hope towards better times.

And then i blink and it hits me, have I been talking to the world or am i just staring into the mirror !!!

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This post is a result of a prompt from my dear sis for a 30 day daily blog challenge. Day 1 of the same is “Mirror, Mirror: What if your mirror started talking to you?”.

The conversation

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“Hi”

“Hello”

“Boy, have you put on weight !!!”

“Well, what did you expect? It’s not that bad, you know”

“Yeah, not that bad i suppose, but look at me. 🙂 ”

“Don’t flatter yourself. If anything, u look skinny. ”

“Ok ok. You’ve been traveling!!! ”

“Yeh a bit. Kind of like it. Lots of things to see out there. ”

“I know. Must be fun. Work treating you well? ”

“It’s fine. Not exactly what I planned on doing. But no regrets. ”

“Hmmm. What are you into?”

“Oh the usual IT crap. Nothing too exciting. ”

“Can’t believe you are into IT man. Thought you didn’t like it and didn’t want to go in there!!! ”

“Still don’t. ”

“Hmmm. ”

“So what are YOU into? ”

“Don’t you know already ? 😉 ”

“:-) so where do you think you are heading ? ”

“What do you mean?”

“You know, in life. Where do you think you are heading? ”

“Do I look like i think so far ahead man. I don’t know where I’m going this evening. 😛 ”

“Ha ha. Should’ve known better. But seriously shouldn’t you be thinking where you are heading ? Think it’s time ”

“I don’t know man. I do reflect back. But thinking and planning ahead. I doubt I’m that kind of person. Just taking things as they come along I suppose. ”

“Well i guess that’s another way to go about it. ”

“Sometimes you wish you could see what’s coming. You wish you could have your memories flowing backwards. ”

“Memories flowing backwards eh!!! Don’t know how that will help. ”

“Yeh it’s like you are living your life looking back into your memories now. ”

“Like a rower rowing, facing backwards. He can see what he’s passing, not what’s coming. ”

“Exactly. In a sense, the boat is always steered by your younger self as you move into the future. ”

“Well that’s the beauty of it. You are never going to be wiser today, than what you can be, tomorrow. So you can reflect and learn. ”

“Why can’t I just learn and look forward is my point. ”

“Well, may be you can build something once you get there. ”

“Aha, if I had that I’d have the memory of me building it already in my head. That’s precisely my point. ”

“Keep thinking. You might hit it, Bro. ”

“I will 🙂 “

The dying artist !!!

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It’s been a while since I sat down to write. Come think to think of it, feels like it’s been a while since I’ve done anything worth while. Seems as though I’ve lost touch with what IS worthwhile.
Just the other day I started drawing, after I don’t know how long. And somewhere along the way didn’t go further. I just stopped and didn’t feel like finishing it.
I don’t know how far this piece is going to go as well. Not too long ago, these things used to excite me very much. Off late I seem to have lost that sparkle. Somehow it feels like the artist in me is dying. And I suppose I AM letting him.
But I don’t want him to. So how do I keep him alive and kicking !!! Keep feeding him things to do, may be !!! That should be it, isn’t it ???
Last time I drew something, I picked a scene to draw and frankly I wasn’t quite sure I was good enough to do it. But boy did it turn out fine! I have to tell you I surprised myself with that one.
But I didn’t draw anything after that. Have I become too lazy now to even care ??? Sometimes feel so.
I’d hate to think that way. Too Lazy to use your skill !!! Too lazy to do something you are good at !!! I mean surely that should not be an excuse, should it !!!
Laziness is quite the demon. But you can fight him. It just takes a lot of perseverance. And when I do that to finish my drawing or blog, it gives that much more satisfaction and happiness. It’s just that those moments tend to be few and far between. You have to keep at it. Mind you he will resurface. But you just have to keep pushing the demon down and try to hold him there.
Let’s see if I can persevere enough to finish that drawing I started, and keep going to the next drawing or blog.

The cat on the side walk

Walking home from office I noticed this cat pruning itself; engrossed. Almost obsessed within. Ignorant of the world around. Does she realize there is the whole world around it !!! Does it even care !!!

Not very different from us, I suppose. So preoccupied with ourselves that we don’t realize that we get in the way of others sometimes. Trying to stay ahead in the race. Life does seem like a race these days. But does it have to mean that you can’t stop once a while to smell the flowers along the way !!! I don’t think so !!!

Step away from what you are doing for a second, put things in perspective and think about what you are going to remember about what you are doing right now, when you look back at your life down the years. Come to think of it I’m not quite sure what I’m taking with me along the way. Considering the life expectancy these days, half my life’s gone, may be even more, with almost no memory of what I did for the first one third of my life. Probably my parents would remember, fondly or not, I don’t know. 😉

Would’ve met so many people, done so many things. Laughed, fought and cried with so many others. Learnt so much ( obviously forgot a major portion of this one, considering my memory status right now 😉 ), tried to learn few things which I couldn’t, would’ve tried my hand at so many news things and the list goes on. But some things that do stick to my head, and I suppose it’s true with most people, is things I didn’t do. Sit down with a pen and paper and I’m sure I can fill up pages with a list of things I didn’t so but, would rather.

I was always into sports. Always been. From the plastic bats from when I was old enough to swing it to the tennis racket I picked up recently. Always played whatever I get a chance to try my hand at. Many times was like “God, I’m good at this”. 😀 Think about it now and I question why I didn’t take sports a little more seriously. I distinctly remember some one asking me if I played cricket professionally when I was really just tall enough to run with the bat in hand. Hmmm !!!

As long as you don’t think about those things you didn’t do, you see through them but when you do, somewhere, you feel the pinch. Looking down from the terrace in my apartment, so much is going on and you start to think, where is everybody going. Everything you look down on seems so insignificant. The building, the people, cars, the roads… That’s what our world is contained in. When you realize, our world, the earth, is just a speck of dust in the cosmos. Just a dot in the vast spaces of emptiness.

Speaking of empty, much of us is too. You see an atom is 90% of empty space and since everything is made up of atoms including us. Which means most of me is just empty space with protons, neutrons, and what ever particle names quantum physics can come up with, revolving around. So what am I !!!

Questions !!! Keep you thinking !!! Sometimes though, its better to forget the questions.Kick back… Make friends… Spread Love… Do what you are passionate about… Live life without regrets. Coz thats the only way you can fulfill living !!! Its not like there is a second innings to it !!!

Which reminds me, there is India vs England test match going on. Should i watch it or sleep to get up for office early morning tomorrow !!! There we go with questions again… 😀

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